Why I Do What I DO???

Have you ever...

                        ... been questioned "Why You Do What You Do?"


If I could remember correctly, there have been times that people, myself included, wonder what's the reason behind certain things I do? Is there a motive?

In all honesty, if you know me, you should know:

• I speak what I think straight from my heart.
• I don't kiss up to the successful and look down on the less-fortunate.
• I always try to see the best in people.
• I give without thinking of getting anything back in return.

Wait, please don't quick to think that I am painting a perfect image of myself... It's far from my intention behind this post.   

Behind this happy-go-lucky, social butterfly, center of parties... there are traits that are carefully hidden from the public eyes.

• I have the hardest time trusting people.
• I can say I have many acquaintances, but only a handful whom I consider friends.
• I am known to take on others' problems as they are mine.
• I hold my feelings to myself and cover them up with the smiles, the laughs, the jokes, etc.
• I can say I do forgive those have done me wrong, but "forget" is something I need to work on.
• I tend to pull away from conflicts to avoid confrontations... and would let things go unresolved.
• I contradict myself when I ask others to hear two sides of any story before passing judgments; but when they ask for my side of the story, I refuse to talk about it... not that I don't automatically think my information is accurate, but I just don't feel comfortable talking about someone when they are not there in person.
• Many more...

So, without going on and on with these hidden flaws, I am sure you can see they outnumbered the more-positive ones from above.

I have no idea why this topic came up... but one thing I hope that this will allow others to understand me a little better...  That through my external appearance, I do have a bundle of things to work on... 

Lesson To Take Away:  Life is worth living when we realize how precious it is even when nothing seems to go our ways.

My Life Outlook:  Trusting in GOD and His plans has given me back my life and the reason to live it with the purpose... That is to serve Him and His people.